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Post by Babydoll on May 28, 2010 19:33:05 GMT -5
( hey, soul sister ) [/font] ( ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo )[/color][/font][/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Babydoll kicked a pebble along the sidewalk as she gloomily made her way to Tibby's. She needed a little tea and sympathy from one of the waiters or waitresses there. Not because of how she'd messed something up or anything. It was because her life was going down the tubes and she wasn't doing very well dealing with it.
She'd never felt so lost in her entire life. Nothing was staying the same at all. Everyone was falling in love or falling out of it and she was just sort of being left in the dust of it all and left out of the lovebug epidemic. It had all really started back when Harley and Race had gotten together. It had been awkward to be in the same room with them because they would be all mushy and it made her sick to watch. Baby and Jax had just sorta' drifted apart, but she hadn't really taken it that well.
But then she'd turned herself away from the world for a bit and just sold papers, ate, and slept. And when she'd started paying attention again people were breaking up that'd been together forever, Spot and Doll were getting married, David was flirting with Harley, Race was gone…
And the biggest sting of all: Jack and Ace had gotten together.
Now Babydoll had never felt anything but younger-sisterly love toward Jack. Nothing ever happened between them. They were like best friends. The fact that he hadn't pulled her out of her slump to tell her this sooner had been a hard blow. The fact that it was Ace who told her only made it worse. People had tried to console her, like BlackJack. But it didn't help. No one got it! No one EVER got it! Yeah she acted like a boy sometimes, yeah she was stubborn, yes she didn't always have a peaceful and charming demeanor. But maybe, just maybe, she needed someone too!? Maybe she wanted to be loved? That maybe she wanted something more than just the normal friendship she got all over New York!?
No, probably not.
Babydoll pushed through the door of Tibby's and sat down at one of the back tables, emotions bubbling up within her and pushing up at her eyelids as tears. She sniffed for a long five minutes, staring out into space in a depressed way before dropping her head into her folded arms on the table and bursting into tears, wallowing in self-pity.
"Why does everything have to slip away like this!?" she sobbed, shoulders shaking.
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Post by Shadow on May 28, 2010 20:51:38 GMT -5
• i need you now tonight. and i need you more than ever. Shadow walked gloomily down the street, she had to get out of Harlem, she was sick of it there. She was sick of being invisible, she was sick of fighting, she was sick of everything. She had to get out of there, so she decided to go to Manhattan. She was feeling really down about life, and needed comfort food.
She felt even more invisible and out of place than what was normal for her. She felt like no one cared about her. Well, it was true. No one cared about her. She was the quiet, invisible one in her borough. Who cared about that? Her own parents didn't even care about her. If they did, they certainly would have kept her. She could have been rich. But they must have known their daughter was going to be worthless, so they gave her up. The children at the orphanage didn't care about her. If they did they wouldn't of made fun of her. They wouldn't have bullied her. If they cared, they would have spared the poor girl's feelings.
Shadow kicked a stone. Why didn't anyone understand that she wanted to be loved more than anything? She didn't seem like it, but that's what she truly wanted. She didn't want to die alone. She wanted to find her true love. There had to be someone for her, right? She was told that by the orphanage workers whenever they noticed her. She was beginning to believe they were wrong.
She yanked open the door to Tibby's and walked in, she needed the comforting that only came from food. Shadow sat in one of the tables in the back, and looked at the menu. If she had the money, she would buy everything that was on the menu. Then she would get fat. Then she would be fat, ugly, and invisible. She surely would be alone then.
"Why does everything have to slip away like this!?"
Shadow jumped at the voice behind her. She turned around, and looked at her. "You look like how I feel right now." She said, sympathetically. "What's wrong with you?"
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Post by Babydoll on May 29, 2010 18:13:16 GMT -5
( hey, soul sister ) [/font] ( ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo )[/color][/font][/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Babydoll looked up with tear-filled eyes at the girl who'd spoken to her. She sniffed and rubbed her eyes hard. Well, at least she wasn't the only one feeling horrible or terrible that day. She hesitated for a moment before responding to her.
"Well, everyone I know is growing up or pairing of…or flirting," she swallowed back tears, "and I'm being left behind in it all. And no one seems willing to stop being wrapped up in it all and talk to me or notice me! It would be nice if they included me in somethin' nowadays." she began to ramble. "It ain't like I hate 'em all because I had a bit of a slump in my life! I…they're all…it's just…yeah."
She sighed and then looked at the girl again, "What's gettin' you down? Love? Stupid friends?"
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Post by Shadow on May 29, 2010 18:45:41 GMT -5
• i need you now tonight. and i need you more than ever. "Well, everyone I know is growing up or pairing of…or flirting,"Shadow nodded, she knew that feeling all too well. It wasn't a pleasant feeling. She felt similar at the moment, it always happened around this time of year too. Spring fever caught up with a lot of people, which made them go crazy and want relationships, that always left her in the dust just watching. Watching and observing like she always did. She listened to the other girl talk. When she mentioned that they didn't notice her, it struck a chord with Shadow. "I know exactly how you feel..." She murmured. "They don't call me Shadow for nothing." She tried to fake a smile. "No one ever notices me." "What's gettin' you down? Love? Stupid friends?""Lack of friends. Lack of love. Lack of everything." She said. "I feel so alone, like if I just disappeared no one would notice. I've been trying to change, trying to be more outgoing and stuff, but it's not working. I'm still not noticed. I get overshadowed a lot." She sighed, "I'm so sick of it. I just want someone to love me, but I think I'm meant to be a loner forever."
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Post by Tootsie on May 30, 2010 19:55:04 GMT -5
Tootsie didn't exactly know what to say. She was sort of in misery. All alone was something Tootsie had only been twice before. Neither time brought back memories of joy.
Tootsie was a person, who, by definition (if she was in the dictionary) has to be with others or she could die. She's just like that. She grew up in a home with eight siblings, only one other being female, and that one died as an infant. But she remembered the first time she was really alone. It was when her mother, the brave woman that she was, had died it was the night that she had given birth to Lupe and Titito. She was the only girl, and they were poor, so Tootsie was left to help her. This was bad for her, seeing that she was pretty clueless, on what to do to comfort her mother. And when the twins were born, and her sister died, she felt awful, and the midwife had taken away the children. And then she was with her mother, who died quickly. And her brother came to take her brother away because he was born first. And Tootsie was all alone. And she had no idea what to do. And so she cried. And the other time she was alone she had run away for the first time, and so she was all alone then. Against her will and with her consent. It had been rough.
And so now, maybe she could explain why she was always needed to be with someone. When she was all alone, bad things happened. And so now, alone in the streets, and single without another to hold her, she couldn't help but sob. And she realized that people were staring, so she ducked into the nearest building, which happened to be Tibby's.
Seeing Babydoll, and a girl she couldn't really identify, she creeped over, wiping her eyes quickly. "Do you mind if I sit here? The world is crap and I'd like to sit here." She plopped into a chair and closes her eyes, and flops her head on the table.
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